Beautiful Broken

Thursday, December 25, 2014

8:13PM - merry Fucking Christmas

*snarls* Thank you for being pushy on Christmas, when I was actually having a good day and was relatively relaxed. You're pushy enough the rest of the time, and I don't say anything because it doesn't bother me enough to make it an issue. But 4, sometimes 5 people, and 4 cats in a house that is only barely 1,000 square feet is pretty damn claustrophobic, without bringing a dog into it!! I can't handle any more living beings in my house right now, and frankly, I let you get away with a lot of stuff I'm not exactly comfortable with. Maybe, in a few months, that will change, I don't know. But for now, is it too much to ask that you back off and give me some space??

Current mood: stressed

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

8:24PM - *whimpers*

Day. From. Hell. Month from hell, actually. Boss lady is going on vacation, and has been getting more and more uptight, which is putting it NICELY. The woman is verbally and emotionally abusive to the point of extremes. It's not that I can't do the job, as she says, it's that she doesn't LET me. I know what I'm doing, but she's got me on a choke chain, and jumpier than a cat in a roomful of rocking chairs!! And since she won't let me 'work alone' nothing gets done in time, and she gets more pissed off! Hoping that the vacation relaxes her enough to back off a bit; as well as the fact that I can and am going to keep the office running smoothly while she's gone. Just, very tired of everything in general lately. Wish I could sleep for a month or so.

Current mood: melancholy
Current music: Within Temptation, It's The Fear

Friday, July 16, 2010

10:24AM - Bad news. rl happenings

I'm not even sure how to start.  My Dad's dead.  He passed away sometime last night.  When I came home a little after 11, I found dried blood on the kitchen floor, and Daddy slumped over on the toilets seat in the upstairs bathroom.  There was blood all over the floor.  He has vericose veins, and they've been an issue lately, he's been bleeding from his ankle. He had a doctor's appointment yesterday, and Mom said they cauterized that vein in his leg.  The EMT said he bled out fairly quickly, and I know he's in Heaven now, with Papa.  The thing is, he had time to get upstairs, and try to treat it himself, he could have called 911.  Or he could have called me to say there was something wrong-I would have called 911 myself and had them come check on him.

I'm still in shock, and I think my Mom is too.  I can't believe he's gone; he drove me nuts sometimes, but he's my Dad, and I love him so much.  Mom's bedridden, and that means it falls to me to take care of all the legal stuff, which I can see is a daunting task, and I'm not sure where to start.  I'm taking things an hour at a time right now, waiting on the cleaning service the police officers recommended to come and deal with the clean up.

I think my cat is traumatized too. She was huddled on the living room floor when I came home, and she's been hovering around me and very clingy. 

Current mood: numb
Current music: Burn, by Cassidy Haley

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

4:24PM - So there's this musician...

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Thursday, March 4, 2010

10:17PM - Meme!

You're on my Friends List. I want to know 35 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other (or think we do). Short answers or long, whatever you want to say (or not) is cool. Copy from here and then repost in a comment. Then repost the empty questions on your journal.

The questions:

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink, what would it be?
05) Favourite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any tattoos and/or piercings? What and where? (And why, if you'd like to tell.)
09) Worst habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favourite sport?
12) Are you naturally optimistic or pessimistic?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you (that you're willing to share here)?
15) Tell me one weird thing about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Clowns: Cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my partner in crime or my conscience?
22) What colour are your eyes?
23) Have you ever been arrested?
24) Soda/beer: Bottle or can?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favourite place to hang out?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe in/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite foods?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Current mood: relaxed

Friday, December 18, 2009

1:37PM - Wow.

Went to the The Night 89X Stole Christmas concert last night.  My first 30 Seconds to Mars concert.  Oh.My.God.  Just, wow.  Waited through four other bands, who were pretty good, but Mars is who I was there to see, and I was not disappointed.  They had so much energy and enthusiasm, and the set was great-they did some songs from A Beautiful Lie, some acoustic, which was really awesome, and then finished with four tracks from the new cd, This Is War.  I screamed myself hoarse, my voice is so raw right now.  Spent most of their set standing on the armrests of my seat in the balcony.  They were signing the new cds after, so that was cool as well, but the venue people kinda rushed everyone though, barely had time to say hi.  Got to talk to Tomo for a minute later though, when he was down in the main lobby-got a hug from him too!  the whole band are really sweet guys, and I had so much fun, I was so wired when I got out, I was up until 4am.  They've only got a couple more US shows, then it's off to Europe, but Jared said that they'll be back in the US again in the spring and I am so looking forward to it.  And I added to my collection of Mars merchandise (three necklaces, wristband, keychain, patch and tshirt) with one of the This Is War T-shirts and a hoodie.  And I've really gotta go leave a thank you note for [personal profile] lisaroquin because she's the one who got me hooked on the band. 

But wow, what an awesome night!

Current mood: excited
Current music: Hurricane; 30 Seconds to Mars

Monday, March 16, 2009



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Friday, March 6, 2009

3:16AM - Dragons


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Current music: What About Us, John Barrowman

Sunday, March 1, 2009


1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions

[info]icedark_elf gave me a T.

1.  Tears of an Angel-RyanDan
2.  Tell Me Why-Declan Galbraith
3.  Time After Time-John Barrowman
4.  Trail of Tears-Heather Dale
5.  The Edge of Paradise-Kamelot

Thursday, February 12, 2009

4:37PM - and yet again, dragons

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Monday, February 9, 2009

11:41AM - dragons again

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Saturday, February 7, 2009

8:50PM - dragons


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Thursday, March 27, 2008


Wednesday, February 6, 2008

4:46AM - Storm fic

Not much of a plot, just Zack and Cloud, and sex in the middle of a thunderstorm.

Storm )

Current mood: creative

4:25AM - Crackfic

What did I do to Deserve This? ...aka the peniscake fic. )

I do not recall what I was on when I wrote this, but I had a lot of fun doing so!

Current mood: creative

4:20AM - Shifterverse Interlude

I'm finally getting around to posting here, and since I'm actually finally working on this series/story, I figured I'd repost it first. 

Interlude )

I will need a beta for the main story sometime soon, if anyone is interested.

Current mood: creative